my private "big ear hole" list and so...

i owe

supz - rm110
steven - rm65
edwinpang - rm50
chinyen - rm20
pengyee - rm50

total - rm 295

and recently i have been asking my dad for money again and again these few weeks..

have been going out very often recently on some "special occasions"

although on those "special occasions" i can and i was told that i do not have to spend money.. just walk around or lepak around is good enough..

but when those "special occasions" come, very often i will automaticly use money..

just to see "someone" smile, i will eventually do so... mostly on food..

so, what now??

the only thing i hope is for that "someone" to understand why sometimes i said no... is not i dont want... is i cant...

yes i might still go out for YC sessions or go to CC to play games, but the money spent during YC and CC sessions are very low compared to how i spend during those "special occasions"

bare in mind, i'm not saying that i regret going out on those "special occasions"

its my fault afterall allowing myself to spent so much when i do go out during those "special occasions"

i'm just trying to make an explanation here...

i hope i made it clear here...

base on my current mood now, i better go for a nap.. if not i'll just go emo whole day long with my "shit aura"